Tuesday, April 22, 2003
Wednesday, April 9, 2003
Ok maybe I am paranoid but I really really feel like people are out to get me.. that they are unhappy w/my performance but instead of coming to discuss things w/me go over my head - Maybe I am getting burned out w/working midnights or maybe I am tired of the inconsistent crap of the shift leaders and I am probably just imagining things but I really feel like my co-worker(s) are trying to sabotage me and that sooner or later I am gonna be blindsided by things that maybe I did or didn't do and if I didn't do them it was due to lack of information - I try my best to keep my nose clean and not overstep things here but you never know... I know I am tired of all the extra work that we seem to have to acquired on my shift lately - work that we shouldn't have to be doing.... and then w/it all tempers are starting to run short because the frustration of the extra crap is starting to build after 18 months.. I don't know... I do know that I seriously need to put my work mind back on track and work on accomplishing the priorities...
Life at home is tiring... Deven didn't have the best of days yesterday - he refused to do almost any of his work, he was antagonizing to other children, shook his fist in anger and stuck his tongue out at the teacher when asked/told to sit down and he decided to use the chairs as nascars and drive/push them around the room... I just don't know what to do w/him... I know part of it is my fault because we had to skip 1/2 a daily dose on Saturday to ensure we had enough meds to get him thru til his refill was ready Monday afternoon... And part is because of all the crap at home but there just has to be more to it... I don't know what it is or what to do but starting today we ARE gonna get back on track and stick to the routine/charts!!!!
Again another place I really need to take stock and set my priorities... I find more and more I NEED lists and now a timer to keep me on track and focused... I did an ADD eval test and it shows I have Adult ADD - I am soo not surprised considering how distracted and absent-minded I can be... Something to talk to the doc about when I finally get around to making an appt for myself... I managed to get things worked out w/my dentist.. we are gonna start the 1st crown/bridge on the 26th... JOY OH JOY!!! There goes 250-300 right off the bat!! TG for payment plans!!!
Well I better get going - they have gotten me the list I need and I have to deciper it!!! Til next time...
Ok maybe I am paranoid but I really really feel like people are out to get me.. that they are unhappy w/my performance but instead of coming to discuss things w/me go over my head - Maybe I am getting burned out w/working midnights or maybe I am tired of the inconsistent crap of the shift leaders and I am probably just imagining things but I really feel like my co-worker(s) are trying to sabotage me and that sooner or later I am gonna be blindsided by things that maybe I did or didn't do and if I didn't do them it was due to lack of information - I try my best to keep my nose clean and not overstep things here but you never know... I know I am tired of all the extra work that we seem to have to acquired on my shift lately - work that we shouldn't have to be doing.... and then w/it all tempers are starting to run short because the frustration of the extra crap is starting to build after 18 months.. I don't know... I do know that I seriously need to put my work mind back on track and work on accomplishing the priorities...
Life at home is tiring... Deven didn't have the best of days yesterday - he refused to do almost any of his work, he was antagonizing to other children, shook his fist in anger and stuck his tongue out at the teacher when asked/told to sit down and he decided to use the chairs as nascars and drive/push them around the room... I just don't know what to do w/him... I know part of it is my fault because we had to skip 1/2 a daily dose on Saturday to ensure we had enough meds to get him thru til his refill was ready Monday afternoon... And part is because of all the crap at home but there just has to be more to it... I don't know what it is or what to do but starting today we ARE gonna get back on track and stick to the routine/charts!!!!
Again another place I really need to take stock and set my priorities... I find more and more I NEED lists and now a timer to keep me on track and focused... I did an ADD eval test and it shows I have Adult ADD - I am soo not surprised considering how distracted and absent-minded I can be... Something to talk to the doc about when I finally get around to making an appt for myself... I managed to get things worked out w/my dentist.. we are gonna start the 1st crown/bridge on the 26th... JOY OH JOY!!! There goes 250-300 right off the bat!! TG for payment plans!!!
Well I better get going - they have gotten me the list I need and I have to deciper it!!! Til next time...
